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So to begin with my road to recovery I first started with medication which my doctor wanted me to take for a month to see whether it helped me, it's supposed to keep my emotions levelled which I definitely needed and at the beginning the medicine made me more anxious and I got an odd side effect with my bones at my legs ached but both of these did subside.
While being medicated I would also see a therapist and we would met regularly to talk about both present issues and past ones. I rather not share my past experiences as I don't feel comfortable doing that but my present ones are what caused my burnout and a result of that I also got a sever case of social anxiety which is such a difficult thing to realise when that isn't you, I was no longer myself and that was difficult to face and most of all had me feel ashamed as I didn't want to present myself that way. Having to accept that and explain that to loved ones was awful.
On top of my meetings with my therapist I had to set up goals each week that I felt that I might manage to accomplish and I could manage my goals and progress on my computer which was a great tool to not only keep myself motivated but also see where things had positive, negative or neutral progress. My therapist would also check up on me there and when I had my actual lows she would call me and check up on me to make sure that I wasn't in a dark place or considered suicide. As far as suicide goes I have had those thoughts but they were a way for my mind to get a sense of relief, I know it's disturbing but it honestly gave me a sense of relief simply thinking about it, not actual going through with it but just thinking about it.
So to help get myself on the road to recovery I would be on sick leave from my work for at least a month at a time and I would on the regular see my therapist, keep a journal on my progress and as my doctor recommended was to do some type of activity like walking. Due to my social anxiety being outdoors was a struggle for me, my therapist
and I found that my trigger for social anxiety stemmed from a combination of the stress at work and being pulled in all directions from not only co-workers but customers and their never-ending gaze. I felt like a zoo animal, I had nowhere to to hide and now having to face people triggered my anxiety.
When I actually had to go out I had to take additional medication and stare at my phone all the way to where ever I was going. So I opted to exercise at home which worked relatively well if I wasn't having a bad day.
My doctor also stated that having a hobby that kept me active was a great way to keep me focused and build up motivation to get out of bed each day and for me that motivation manifested into Every Shade of Food.
I had already earlier that year begun focusing on what I put in my body as an attempted to aid my health both inside and out because I was of course feeling the long-term abuse on my health and this was before my massive panic attack and I don't even want to consider where I would be health wise if I hasn't already begun my journey to a healthier life. Now more than ever I Every Shade of Food was my path to a better life and a better me.
I spent the next 3 months working on these methods to help find myself again and to become a new and improved version of myself and along with that I had the helping hand of my union to help me return back to my workplace.
We would have meetings and discuss not only when I will return but the type of work I would do to ease myself back in and discuss what kind of improvements they were making to the workplace. I begun working a few hours a week, steadily until I could return fully and my co-workers would be honest and talk about how things hasn't
changed and that they understood where I was coming from.
Unfortunately one of my co-workers that was part of the regular staff confided in me that she was looking for a new job but that she wasn't sure if it was the right call and I told her that if they comeback to here with a job offer she should take it, even thought I much preferred having here there I wanted her all the best and this wasn't it. She of course got the job. I was so happy for her.
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